No this isn't a journal seeking sympathy or anything. Just a letter to a friend. No replies are needed:

I want to know. Are we still close as we were? It seemed like you were fine one moment, and an hour later everything goes sour.
You know I see you as one of my best friends. And you said the same recently.
What happened to that?
I don't make friends easily. Or rather, I don't make TRUE friends easily. At least when it comes to girls because somehow, they always seem to turn on you. But I was able to open up to you right away. And now it feels like you are doing the same thing at this moment. Like I said, I just want to understand. That is all. I've lost almost everyone I held close to me. All that I really have left is you and the two guys. And I need a girl sometimes to talk to things about and I can't talk with the other two.
You understand me, get what I mean and try to say. You are my sister that I love. I just want things to go back to normal, that is the only wish that I have right now.
No, you don't need to respond to this, but I hope you read it and we can work whatever happened out so we can go back.
Unless you want something different. If so, then just tell me. I love you, remember that.

/end
If anyone figures out who it's for, please no saying their name please?

Luv you all <3
~Blair